recover.......

yeah, its almost come to a week, since the good recovery. i thank god, that all fights was ended. and, im able to think more freely, i can breathe with a good flow,inhale more oxygen, and i can smile frankly, honestly...everything run smoothly.seperti dulu. but, of course, every incidence happened are leaving its own "stains". how ,many time we urge ourselves to accept the phrase "takpe la,tutup buku lama, bukak buku baru". are we really accepting that phrase.or just words, but in our heart still with the "buku lama"? that matters are the matters that should be ignored.letak dalam recycle bin, and just empty the recycle bin. hope it could be like that. but this is just a starting. since we have to wait for several months until it can really be erased.hopefully. stains, and every incidence are having its own extension. remember i did mention about the third party? (parties exactly)....... i know u are worrying them a lot..... and im really understand the feel. it is real bad if it really happens onto u. i do understand. i tried to accept. but for me, that already make me....umm..umm...ummm.... i dont really have a good words how to picture it. but it really do give effects onto me..........unless u stop mentioning me about the parties....adoih. i cant describe my feels lah.of course, ungkit ungkit, tak puas hati of course occurs punyalah......but how can we stop peoples kan. terutama mulut mereka......( i dunno if those peoples keep mumbling about the last issues?but, i can predict, for sure yes.... and of course will not happened infront of u)...exactly, its not bout who's mumbling, but more matters on how u response.....are you going to worry more, more than the matters you should worry....think....
and of course some more "extended matters"..... biarlah..
and sorry, i keep giving a passive response on some matters and issues regarding us for days lately . i think, shutting mouth and passive - ing on some issues is better, than starting a new quarrel. i really fell uneasy..... and i better avoiding talk more ( as ive mention too much before) im sorry.but things are getting better day by day....but not this coming days i think.....but hopefully its not. and i think u are happy enough with the parties..... so i just let u go with ur happiness..bagus lah. and ...... that were explanations and hopes and an uneasy expression of mine.thank you.

less complexity, having u is good enough.I wont talk much

wit luv
sazwan sahar

THE CLEVERS, THE STUPIDS, THE EGOS!

this is a special post. which i must, and have to delivered. baca and taste it lah...
i was once have a crisis and a big quarrel...dengan seorang gadis. kami berhubung secara baik dan perjalanan semua pun lancar.(just waiting for time lah!hahaha). tapi atas satu sebab yang saya panggil "sesuatu", we quarreled. besar jugak. kami terputus hubungan sekejap. i go back home,and what ive done was, WASH MYSELF. saya buat banyak pemerhatian atas kejadian dan keretakan tersebut.dengar pandangan orang tua dan pandangan orang orang tua (lain ye). god. memang teruklah. how come can i ruinned a relation which i've made. saya berfikir dan teruskan berfikir. sampai bila nak hidup bermusuh kan. dunia kecik. satu hari, saya mesti memerlukan dia juga. and, it is a matter of EGO and panjang dan sedalam mana "manusia" berfikir sebelum bertindak. and, what i think was: I SHOULD CHANGE THE ATMOSPHERE, AND THE ONE WHO HAVE TO START IT FIRST IS ME.i called up for a meet. it was fail for a first attempt. i start to make everything gone as usual. seperti tiada apa apa (pandai berpura pura ni.hehehe) saya bersabar (bersabar itu kan seni BERHARAP). dan tawaran kedua saya tersahut. we take our own time. explaining, conversate hear for each one's views and opinions. and i think it was a success. a big success. thanks mate.i love u.....
that is the text, and the context is:
kesilapan ramai orang ialah, cuba untuk menjadikan orang orang di sekelilingnya mengikut kemahuan masing masing tanpa berfikir,HEY,I GOT MY OWN WORLD LAH, U GOT YOURS TOO.semua org cuba untuk engineer kan keadaan dan orang ikut kemahuan peribadi. kenapa tidak menerima orang atas keadaan apa diciptakan tuhan. bukankah itu keistimewaan orang tersebut. tapi bukanlah maksudnya kalau orang tu teruk u are going to let him/ her be with his so called "SPECIALTY". what we need is a little adjusment lah. tanggungjawab kita menegur sesama umat kan, but make sure caranya betul ( saya dah buat salah pada cara saya.)
sejauh mana anda mampu berfikir secara betul betul waras semasa anda marah.adakah anda betul betul 100% waras. 50 % maybe, 30%, 5% percent could be......or anda telah sepenuhnya bertukar menjadi "makhluk" lain semasa anda marah. atau sebenarnya dah bertukar kepada orang bodoh. kita speak out, tanpa berfikir banyak perkara yang terjadi sebelumnya. atas sebab apa lawan kita bertindak sebegitu. adakah sebab salah di pihak kita, atas pengaruh perkara lain....atau apa apa sebab lah. pasal semua perkara terjadi dengan alasan bukan?
i confess, i was really a big EGO MACHINE. pasal saya bernafas dalam ego.hahaha. dan penyakit ego ini yang keep me to be very full of myself, sampai saya terlupa yang saya ada orang lain di sekeliling saya dan saya masih perlu dengar pandangan orang orang ini. kita tak boleh nak hidup dengan pandangan sendiri dan i am really really sad. ive lost my tolerance:toleransi. which i was strongly sticked with this principe of tolerance with every one ( i dont like to push people, reject ones opinion and ideas). saya masih perlu dengar pada pandangan orang lain. dan saya perlu dengar apa yang difikirkan oleh the secon party (toleransi masih boleh berjalan dengan baik even orang kedua tu tak berapa nak keluar suara). tolerance tolerance tolerance........
last.u cant judge people. jangan menjatuhkan hukum atas sebab apa orang itu bertindak pada masa tersebut.pasal itu kerja tuhan. kita menjatuhkan hukum, padahal kita tak tahu perkara yang sebenarnya,sampai ke dasar.masalah terbesar orang kita: MENJATUHKAN HUKUM TANPA SEBENAR BENARNYA MENDASARI. itu yang saya dah buat, dan apa yang terjadi pada saya,kebelakangan.

and as i've expected this quarrel memang ada the third party even sampai 30 party pun lah (party: extended person:orang lain).yang tahu, mengambil tahu. atau dengan cara apa sekalipun lah anda terlibat. its ur matter. dan percampuran ini, macam biasa, yang saya tahu, yang saya sangka, saya terima pandangan negatif lah macam biasa. but i dont blame u. dont worry. im still cool. mungkin saya dah ada makin ramai pembenci hasil insiden apa yang dah terjadi. but, god's will lah. saya faham. dan saya mengakui kesilapan saya. tapi saya tak akan menyalahkan. saya faham, manusia didasari dengan emosi, dan keupayaan berfikir seseorang dan daya pemahaman seseorang tak sama. yang ini saya balikkan semula pada sikap orang kita:MENJATUHKAN HUKUM TANPA SEBENAR BENARNYA MENDASARI. sebenarnya ada masalah dari segi komunikasi, cara menceritakan apa yang dah terjadi. saya cadang untuk dengar semula penjelasan. itu yang terbaik. anda manusia yang boleh berfikir waras, maka berfikirlah. saya tegar dengan kutukan. kalau nak teruskan mengutuk pun apa salahnya. i'm ok.even ALL OF U CAN GIVE A FUCK ON MY FACE. im still ok friend =) until u understand lah. i wont blame.semuanya masalah komunikasi dan saya mengaku peratusan besarnya berpunca dari saya.

CLEVERS WILL THINK BEFOR HE/SHE ACTS AND SPEAKS.AND AFTER DOING A BIG MISTAKE, HE WILL FIND A REALLY REALLY GOOD WAY HOW TO NEUTRALISE THE CONDITION, AS GOOD AS USUAL

STUPIDS WILL ALWAYS THINK,HE IS MR/ MRS RIGHT, KEEP BLAMING PEOPLE, WITHOUT KNOWING THE REAL CONDITION.STICK WITH THEIR BAD CURRENT CONDITION WITHOUT APPLYING " USAHA" TO RECOVER EVERYTHING TO BE GOOD AS USUAL.

EGOS GOT NO TOLERANCE. YOU ARE YOU.ALL TIME.

WHICH ONE ARE YOU?

and i was and still happy. pasal, ive ended a bad relation, saya dah cuba selamatkan seorang individu daripada bertukar watak menjadi seorang individu yang lebih agresif. i admit, all that were my mistakes, and was happened because of my stupidness.dan of course saya sangat satisfy dengan apa yang saya dah lakukan, which i think is really gentlemen. cuba cuba jadi gentlemen ya GENTLEMEN.......

and...........


all that happened yesterday.....


thanks mate.

WIT SMILES,HUGS,LOVE AND KISSES(are also for my haters)

salam
sazwan sahar( a good prince charming wanna be,waiting for any princess charming to be brought away together with my horses =p)

bagaimana kehidupan saya berjalan 365 hari yang lepas - part 1

i still remember, today, as I was announced as one of the standing "calon bertanding" for the student representative council (MPP), for the 580 votes, left other 3 candidates behind. satu pertandingan yang saya bertanding setelah beberapa kali sesi membetulkan niat. memang susah nak terima masa nak mula bertanding dulu. since, i have to ask for opinions from many people. semua kata, JALAN JE LAH! saya teak pernah tersentuh pun nak bertanding, or being what i am for the last 365 days back. how it all started?

before raya begun, last year, i was being texted by kak Zai (zaidatul akmal,miss z), TAKNAK JADI MPP KE,BOLEH DAPAT BANYAK LAGI PENGALAMAN.....sounded something like that lah. tak ingat. I just said, TAK TAU. I just shut my mouth off lah. that is not my thing. for what kan. i still got other thing to catch.(i was too in love with rakan muda that time, i think (was thinking) my career is there lah kot.haha)....i was being texted few times just for that question. until kak zai reveal me to a thing, that i felt, i should get in, to save the world.(the saviour ke saye ni?)ahahaha. yeah, question marks fro my raya that year. wanna be, or not wanna be? am i going to sit on the post just because of terpaksa?a tough question jugak lah.

why am i too self-questioning?

becoz, seriously i felt that im just a nobody, suddenly wanna get in and standing for the post.with my character that time, oh god, I could see the future, there would be disaster punya lah aku cakap kat kau.

even, i wasnt ready with my manifesto. i do not know what im going to deliver pun on the manifesto nights (3 nights standing on the stages,sweating, lutut ketar).memang menjemput maut betullah aku rasa masa tu. I met Ammar Firdaus on the monday evening,asking a soalan bodoh "ammar, nak cakap apa malam ni?" adus! hee!

i still remember how i delivered my speeches all that nite.seram.

malam first nak muntah

malam second berpeluh peluh

malam third cool saje =)

i hope that give u visuals on how all thing gone that time,how clumsy I was.

but Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me strength all along that time, and unexpected, i was announced to sit on the cabinet. take that!

special thanks to those people

zaidatul akmal (for much support)

ammar firdaus (for much support and manifesto)

abg bob (where are you?)

ahmad syafiq shiro

hanif abdul wahab

norafifah (pipah)

faraain wagiman

Norayuni Azizi (for watching,running,hearing my words through phone.much thanks!)

friends,folks

___________ - kindly fill ur name here.

i was having good time with all of you, and now still.will remain sweet.

preview for part 2 - "org lain semuanya nampak hebat"

till next post

salam and wit luv

"by any means necessary"

Achmad Shazwan

I SCORED!!!...(preface)

TULISAN INI BERSEMPENA DENGAN MASUK SETAHUNNYA SAYA MEMEGANG JAWATAN SEBAGAI PENGERUSI JAWATANKUASA PERHUBUNGAN AWAM DAN ANTARABANGSA MAJLIS PERWAKILAN PELAJAR UNIVERSITI MALAYSIA PAHANG. whatever it is, i wanna thank Allah,friends, the CABINET and the POST it self. ALHAMDULILLAH.all of u make me a man! and i wanna shout, AFTER 365 DAYS,I SCORED! am now at the finish line.good bye post.farewell......