recover.......

yeah, its almost come to a week, since the good recovery. i thank god, that all fights was ended. and, im able to think more freely, i can breathe with a good flow,inhale more oxygen, and i can smile frankly, honestly...everything run smoothly.seperti dulu. but, of course, every incidence happened are leaving its own "stains". how ,many time we urge ourselves to accept the phrase "takpe la,tutup buku lama, bukak buku baru". are we really accepting that phrase.or just words, but in our heart still with the "buku lama"? that matters are the matters that should be ignored.letak dalam recycle bin, and just empty the recycle bin. hope it could be like that. but this is just a starting. since we have to wait for several months until it can really be erased.hopefully. stains, and every incidence are having its own extension. remember i did mention about the third party? (parties exactly)....... i know u are worrying them a lot..... and im really understand the feel. it is real bad if it really happens onto u. i do understand. i tried to accept. but for me, that already make me....umm..umm...ummm.... i dont really have a good words how to picture it. but it really do give effects onto me..........unless u stop mentioning me about the parties....adoih. i cant describe my feels lah.of course, ungkit ungkit, tak puas hati of course occurs punyalah......but how can we stop peoples kan. terutama mulut mereka......( i dunno if those peoples keep mumbling about the last issues?but, i can predict, for sure yes.... and of course will not happened infront of u)...exactly, its not bout who's mumbling, but more matters on how u response.....are you going to worry more, more than the matters you should worry....think....
and of course some more "extended matters"..... biarlah..
and sorry, i keep giving a passive response on some matters and issues regarding us for days lately . i think, shutting mouth and passive - ing on some issues is better, than starting a new quarrel. i really fell uneasy..... and i better avoiding talk more ( as ive mention too much before) im sorry.but things are getting better day by day....but not this coming days i think.....but hopefully its not. and i think u are happy enough with the parties..... so i just let u go with ur happiness..bagus lah. and ...... that were explanations and hopes and an uneasy expression of mine.thank you.

less complexity, having u is good enough.I wont talk much

wit luv
sazwan sahar